I hope everyone has great plans to get in the outdoors and enjoy the upcoming weekend. Saturday and Sunday I will be in Baltimore with my friends Bob and Maggie McCarty. I'm sure there will be great wine and we'll see if I can stand the hot tub. I'm really looking forward to it. Brian and Suzie don't have Monday off (what kind of univ is that?) so, I'll have the girls on Monday.
As I near week one things are continuing to soak in ever deeper. I'm am learning about life with young children and about how my brain and body are used to moving/shaking and being right in the middle of a ton of things. There isn't a major event to organize, crisis to avert. Instead I've been making castles from cardboard, going to the park, naps, meals, bumps and bruises and morphing into some character at a moments notice. Both of them are independent and strong-willed. It's never a dull moment. It is a whole different kind of energy. I see what all my stay at home mom friends mean when they say they crave adult contact. It's a great blessing to be with them, however and watch them learn and grow. We've become great friends.
The next major thing is that it seems I may have rented my house finally. It has freaked me out in an unexpected way. I think subconciously, as long as no one else was in it I could go back or it all wasn't real. So, it been an adjustment to realize someone else really is going to live in my house for a year. I can't go back. I can't change it. Another door has closed and made it all official. It's a really weird feeling, especially since they are strangers with a cat. I relented on the cat, but I really needed to get it rented. So, now that major hurdle is taken care of for the time being. I've been told they are signing the lease today and moving in right away. This whole thing continues to feel surreal. I don't think I've landed in my own life yet. It happened so fast and with such intensity that it's hard to take in and comprehend. Oh well, one step at a time. At least now I can pay my major bills. That will help. It's also a huge adjustment to not having a decent paycheck hit my checking account every month. I don't know what that's like. In case you wanted to know.....it's weird!
Last thing to note. I'm only 300 minutes over on my cell phone bill! Ya, that's going to hurt. However, only 1 more day until I get to start over and finally be able to talk during the day. I didn't really think that part out. Oh well, you live and you learn.
Make it great. Laura
2 comments:
Daughter, all I can say is ... Hope and Nora are very fortunate to have such a fantastic aunt with so many talents ... making castles from cardboard, going to the park, naps, meals, bumps and bruises and morphing into some character at a moments notice. No wonder you sound tired when we call you.
Yes,your house has rented and now you have some income so that's one less thing you have to be concern with. It does finalize the whole process but then you really wouldn't want it any other way ... would you? Another door may have closed but a window or two has opened...have you found them yet.
Keep writing down your thoughts and events, your life is becoming more interesting by the day. Even if you don't feel you own it as yet, you will some day soon.
Don't for get the 3 R's ... rest, relax and recuperate you earned.
Love you, Dad
Thanks padre. You're so good to me and good for me. Not only are you a good example of a person fully living, you are so supportive and enouraging. I am very thankful. It is certain that it takes a certain energy to be with the girls, but it seems to be getting easier. I don't fall asleep on the floor when it's just supposed to be pretend anymore.
No, I have not found my windows yet, but like the horrible storm brewing this week. I think this is my calm before the storm. As my friend Bob mentioned this weekend, let the dust settle and then pick up the pieces when I can see more clearly.
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